Monday, May 19, 2008

hmmm...dunno y somehow i always felt a sadness whenever i go c her blog...how i wished i can be the one to be by her side when things happen...be the one to care for her always...be the one to standby her but den things dun work out tix way...

today went to cut my hair...omgosh saw something i shldnt c on a teenager magazine...on mar 2008 issue....quite conincidence to c her name and some1 name on it...damn funny thing is happening around mi...and i guess i muz be ready to accept tat she will not be free even during my birthday month...

yesterday my father say one thing...ask mi to bring my gf along...but i dun even hav 1 how to bring...plus msn wif gals doesnt really mean much...juz becoz chatting den muz mit parent...tats so omg...great 2 more days to GRAD...cant wait to grad...but den again...after grad...i guess i wont be cing her for quite long...

but den again...wat is really holding her back...is it her commitment or her past...i dunno...she dun really say much about her past...haiz...but her post machan like posting her past...

AM I BEYOND RETURNING...OR CAN I EVEN ACCEPT WAT IS GONNA HAPPEN
the light in my world is getting thinner and thinner...and one day i might even not be able to smile truely anymore...

SAD AND LONELINESS COLD WILL ENGULFED MY WORLD
AND BECOME ONCE IT WAS...OR MAYBE WORSE OFF THAN LAST TIME...

i'll owaes be here -
+5/19/2008 04:16:00 AM+