Friday, July 11, 2008

i guess i really damn hopeless...
y do i always hav to go thru tix...
y do i hav to stuck wif tix kind of life...
y do i hav to fall in love wif a gal at tix time...
y do i feel tix way all the time...
y y y!!!!!!
i hate myself to the veri end...
i'm a useless failure guy afterall...
one day my existance will juz disappear silently and no1 will knew...
guess i'm always behind ppl's back...

anyway finally survive the 5 day confinement at microsoft...
wat a tiring 5 days...tix 5 days really killing mi...i hardly hav any gd slp...
work myself till damn tired...so my brain wont tink...tats so wrong...but wat can i do to stop myself from tinking

Countdown to the end of my wish period : 20 more days...
i guess my wish wont come true afterall...even though got 20 more days...
i noe its kinda cruel if my wish come true but...juz wanted to prove otherwise...
and i guess i wont be able to do tat afterall....
my time is ticking dunno when it will stop...hope it can tick as long as possible....

i guess i'm juz a lone guy who is juz nt...but purely being used by others nia....
if i'm of no use animore, wt will really happen 2 mi...being a gd guy somehow always lose out aniway....so i guess i will be turning myself to darkness where i came from in the first place b4 poly...so i wont be wat i am...but will be wat i am in the past...no emo...no feelin...nt...and heck care person...dun care about others...dun even be bothered about others...

comparing myself and past...i guess i'm gg thru something where ppl may only go thru once or twice but i gg thru it so many times...damn sianz...guess cant be helped...a guy like mi...wont win 1...i always lose...

in tix world i guess my chance is 0.0000001% le bah....haha...maybe can go be a monk le...lol...

a guy who totally giv up on hope....

i'll owaes be here -
+7/11/2008 10:36:00 PM+