Thursday, July 31, 2008

these few day so sianz...haiz...i feel like i dying le...
feeling up and down like roller coaster and down can be veri down lor...dunno wat is wrong wif mi again...y do i always feel tix way...i almost at my limit...if overshoot i will break down soon...den tat will be the END for mi le...

i guess i really veri weak...the door to my heart is opened once again...and i thought i ve locked it for gd...so disappointed in mi..once tix door open again will be emoing alot non stop till the day of tix door close...haiz...sad sia...juz when i hav thought i seal tat door for gd and yet...

is tix reallying wat ppl called love or relationship....where there bound to be some1 hurt in the end...and i tink if the gal say dun wanna hurt the guy its already too late....no matter wat she do,she will bound to hurt the guy in some way...its juz tat they dunno only....

is tat a way to suppress feeling....i really wished tat is one simple to do tat and tat is work till u crazy X_X...but tat juz avoiding it and not facing it...haiz...life sux...how i wished tat is a knife for mi to stab in my heart and locked tat feeling away forever till one day some1 pull it out again without hurting mi....

:( : let myself be rotted with parts by parts and fade away one day..and go MIA without any1 notice...slowly i will be no longer of any existence...

whether its gd or bad...i dunno myself...juz hoping tix in the end turn up well...if not i myself can no longer tink of any reason animore to be alive in tix world except to live for myself and no1 in tix world...or am i really suited to be juz a lone wanderer 4ever...

haiz...dunno y been so emo le....sometime i cant even bear the emo myself animore...so tired yet so sick and yet so sad...wahhh...worst yr of my life....if i haven go beijing will all tix thing happen????will i be emoing so much if i haven ever felt tat feeling so strong b4...

such a long emo post...hope i wont bored my readers...

i'll owaes be here -
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