Tuesday, February 12, 2013

Lately i have fall in love with a gal, she wasnt tat pretty or ugly...can say above average abit...i have known her for quite long but there was a period we didnt chat coz of a misunderstanding between her and a fren of mine...i didnt noe what happened and didnt probe into it.... she was such a cute gal and fun to be wif....one day i started to msg her again...asking how is she...till i say i damn ugly no gal wan...she say she wan mi as a bf....i was so happy that there is a gal that say tat to mi...happiness only last shortly....i was actually considering whether wan her to be my gf....but i juz wanna hang out wif her...for now...suddenly dunno wat came over mi and i tell her that i like her...her reply was dun fall for mi....this rather broke my heart....she the one that helped mi move on from my past that haunt mi for 5yrs....and now probably will start a new haunt...totally heart broken when she say that...if its the past she worry about i wont mind...but she juz keep quiet and dun say anything...i noe that it is impossible to ask her to be my gf straight, nid to take one step at a time..tat time i was afraid to lose her...so ended up juz spilt everything out...from tat time on, we did continously msg almost everyday but now it seem tat she no longer continously reply to mi...sadded...
I guess I will juz eventually lose her....but i just wished her to be happy as i dunno when will my time be up...
Dun wan to c her sad...cing her sad also make mi sad....wanted to cheer her up ended up scare her angry...

12/02/2013
I have set alarm clock just to wake her up incase she overslept. Although i did spam her to wake up thru whatsapp i dun tink she c it...spam quite a few msg den she reply. After that no more...msg frm her...how i wished she will msg mi first once in awhile but i guess it wont happened...Vday coming soon...i wished to ask her out but i probably will not be in her considered list to go out wif so i can only juz leave it. Today went to fren hse play "21", started wif 20cent ended wif $1 so still okie...hahaha....

Now at home blogging this stuff, coz i feeling quite sad, wanted to post in facebook so as to let her c it but too many ppl will start to ask abt it and say dun emo le....so i rather post here as only i can c it for myself and no one and as a diary to myself.

Back to post, i have tried to ask her wanna hav dinner tgt but she say no...forever say no....i really missed her alot....so ended up today i eat dinner alone...and i wanted to msg her but didnt coz she wont reply to mi at all...probably reply to others...

Guess thats it for my post today...i shall go kill the feeling inside mi so i wont be tat xinku...

Signed off
ShadowK

i'll owaes be here -
+2/12/2013 05:56:00 PM+