Thursday, February 14, 2013

It is once again another year of valentine day alone...was hoping maybe this year will have someone to go out with yet i failed again...once again...a day to be alone and MIA...dunno if i should reply anyone tml or not...dun wan to spoilt their mood...anyway tml is juz another day for mi to go sch den go home...everytime watch the ppl on street always couple here and there kinda envious them...everytime c them...den hav a thought juz what is wrong wif mi...y am i alone....even relative also hav question for mi...how come u still single...i replied wat to do....("no gal will like mi")...haha haiz everytime ask the same thing not sianz meh....is like not i dun wan but is the other party dun wan i also no choice....plus its so hard to get a gf nowadays....wanna ask her out also so hard....everyday busy here and there or dun wan....i cannot do anything about it mah....

cycle(fren->hanging out->close fren->(if can)start dating->bgr)

but fren can also ended up stranger le like mi....it seems that now she not active with mi liao...i also cant do anything about...initially when we started chatting, she say she wont leave mi no matter wat, i wonder how true it is...guess nth is forever...and we almost chat everyday...

ppl change and forget about wat they say but not mi...i will scroll back to chatlist and look at the happy moments that we chat...even if facetime i also quite happy to be able to c her go to slp...now no more liao...i feel like a spare tyre...probably she will forget about mi again...

been consulting a fren, although the fren asked mi to move on, but i stubbornly silly waited for her....
She asked mi to wait for her to become pretty but probably i may not hav that much time to wait for her...
life mah so fragile u may not noe what will happened...even so if i hav time to wait, i dun wan to wait for something that has no promised result...

If you are reading this, i dun even noe whether u will read it or not...although i may not be able to do it but this is what i gonna do for you if we really become couple:
-Get couple ring with our name carved on it, one for you and one for mi.
-With this ring, i will make my promised not to leave you no matter what.

It may seems kinda silly but that wat i wanted to do for u..a promise...but it may never happened at all for now unless miracle happened...which i doubt so...

U may wondered why my world is filled of negativeness and despair...i got reason de and cannot say it...in my old blog i did mentioned about it b4 but its been deleted....

another week or so(23 feb) more to check up...dunno if i am thinking too much but seems i hav internal bleeding for two years le....hope i am wrong... :(

signed off
shadowK =(

i'll owaes be here -
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